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Why am I so Worried?

January 29, 2009 Leave a comment

What a satisfyingly accomplishing day today. (And yet, I’m still on the verge of a minor panic attack. Odd.)


Anyways. I interviewed for an internship today at the Lubbock Avalanche-Journal. And I got it. (!!!!!!) I’m so happy. I’m going to be working on the copy desk. It should be quite an interesting summer. I’ll work four days a week for five hours at a time. Joe, the man I”ll work under, said my schedule would probably be something along the lines of Sunday through Wednesday, 6 p.m. to 11 p.m. Odd hours, but if you think about it, copy editing is kind of the last thing on the menu anyways. So I’ll get another job and work a few mornings a week. I definitely need to be earning some money this summer. I’m so excited.

Funny story. My interview was at two this afternoon, and I got to the A-J at 1:50, just like I wanted. However, the first floor was not the newsroom. The first floor was the sales and circulation floor. So, I went to the information desk and told the woman there, “Hi, I have an appointment with so-and-so at 2, but I’m not sure where to go.” Then she says, “Take the elevator up to the second floor and you’ll be in the newsroom. Ask someone there.” I was like, great. That’s comforting. So I get in the elevator. And go up the second floor. And as it creaks up to the second floor, I’m in the elevator trying desperately not to vomit from nerves. (Why, oh why, must I be the type person who makes myself sick when I”m nervous? Why?) Then, the elevator door opens. I step out, into a giant room that is not conveniently broken up into partitioned desks, but just a huge group of desks. Every single head in that room snapped up and stared at me. I started looking around desperately for at least a secretarial desk to see if there was someone who could direct me, but there was NO ONE. No one. It was terrible. Everyone just kept staring, and there were no visible name tags on the desks, so I couldn’t even see if I could find the woman whom I was supposed to be meeting. Finally, a woman in the very back got up and started walking toward me. She took pity on me. I must have looked so pathetic, standing there, looking around wildly. It was awful.


I’m a little nervous about spending the entire summer in Lubbock, but it is a little easier knowing I’ll be out of Lubbock this time next year. That is such a relief. Also, two of my best friends (as of now) will be in Lubbock too. That’s comforting.


Next on the agenda is finding a place to live. That’s stressful, but my parents promised me I could live by myself, and I’m really looking forward to that. For various reasons.


I interviewed a girl today for the yearbook. Hands down, she was one of the coolest persons I have ever met. She was a little person, and I think I could have talked to her all night. She’s been everywhere. She’s lived in New York, Dallas, D.C. She was in Europe for four months touring with a children’s musical. It was amazing. My own life felt so insignificant compared to what she has accomplished. I feel blessed to have had the chance to meet her. It was amazing.


I’m going home tomorrow, and I am so excited. I got really homesick last weekend, and I’m not sure why. It just hits sometimes.


I wish I didn’t feel so stressed and anxious. I have a knot in my chest, and I feel like I can’t breathe. Maybe it’s the fact I have a paper due Monday, a test Monday, my yearbook story due Monday evening/Tuesday (Monday, preferably), two reporting projects, and tons of reading to get finished by Tuesday morning. Oh, and my magazine writing story finished by Wednesday, plus a query letter for that same class due also. Oh, my goodness. I feel sick. Wish me luck! I’m off and running into next week already. And it’s still Thursday. Super duper.


I love life right now. So much. 😀


It’s all downhill from here…

January 26, 2009 Leave a comment

Last night I dreamed I did a puzzle. Does that mean my life is hopelessly mundane?

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January 25, 2009 Leave a comment

I haven’t missed someone this much in a long time. That sounds so lame, but it’s true.


I had a perfect weekend. Quiet, but wonderful.


My week is already full of stuff to do. Workouts, dinners with friends on Tuesday and Wednesday, interviews,  racquetball, an INTERVIEW for an internship, and heading home for the weekend on Friday. Hopefully, it will fly. That’s all I want; for time to pass. At least the next year. Then it’s welcome to slow down.


Since last October, my dad has been remodeling our back porch. He and my mom wanted to enclose it so that it could be another TV room. Dad did all the construction himself, so they saved a ton of money doing it that way, but he worked himself to the bone doing all of that. Luckily, it’s over now. They’re just picking out furniture. I’m so excited for them. And I’m excited because it means Mom and Dad will be staying in that house for a while. I was worried they would move since my sister is graduating from high school in May. I can’t imagine them not living in that house. I’ve lived there since I was born.


That’s really all I have to say. I’m trying to write a story for my magazine writing class right now, but it’s not going well. I’ve promised myself Pei Wei for dinner if I just finish it by 6 p.m. Wish me luck, because I don’t see it happening.

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It’s Beautiful.

January 22, 2009 2 comments

In this moment, here and now, I am happy. Life is beautiful.


I have a fantastic father who, although we fight, loves me and I love him. I could ask for no better.


I have a mom who is the most selfless woman I know.


I have a little sister who vibrant and every time we talk, makes me smile.


I have amazing, close friends. I don’t know what I would do without them. I don’t need a huge group; I’m good with a few.


I love my major; almost every part of it. I love learning new aspects of the industry and improving my writing and skills every day.


I’m dating an amazing guy; a guy that surprises me every single day with how well we click.


And I have opportunities. It is incredible to me, the way my future is unfolding right before my eyes. I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen in the next few years. I CAN’T WAIT.

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January 20, 2009

January 21, 2009 Leave a comment

These are my thoughts on yesterday’s events.


First of all, dear old George W. I think he is a man of amazing character. He is from my hometown, and my dad grew up across the street from him. I hold a special place in my heart for him, and I so wish I could have been in Midland yesterday to welcome him back.

I don’t think he always made the best decisions in his presidency, and to be honest, I didn’t always agree with many of the things he did. But I admire him for his steadfast resolve in his decisions. He never wavered, and always stayed strong. Had I been in his position…I don’t even know. I can’t imagine how he has held up for the past eight years. I feel sorry for him sometimes, sorry that he is criticized so widely. I hope history writers are fair to him.

While watching the inauguration events, I wanted to cry as I watched Bush and Obama interact with each other. I thought it was amazing Barack and Michelle walked George and Laura out to the helicopter. It seemed like a very respectful and amicable “passing of the baton.” I felt bad for Bush during Obama’s inaugural address, because he definitely ripped on Bush and his policies. It must have been hard to sit right there and listen to that, but as always, he held it together.

So I guess I want to say: Thank you, former President Bush. Thank you for showing strength and integrity always. I, for one, admire you and will always admire you, and I am so happy Texas is where you are staying.


Now onto Obama. I’ll be honest: I like him. I like his vigor, his vitality, his energy. I love the way he gives speeches. He captures his audience in a way I have never before seen. I’ve never been one to be overly interested in politics, but Obama makes me want to sit and listen. He seems like a good man, and I’d like to hope this country is in good, safe hands with him at the helm.

I’m not saying I agree with everything Obama has proposed; I definitely don’t. I just think he brings something new to the table. I’m not sure how his policies will turn out, and again, I hope everything works out for the best. It always does, so I suppose we’ll just have to hope for that.


So now the big issue: race. Everyone has been saying it’s a huge deal for an African American to be president, because it means the race barriers have been completely broken down. That is true. Completely. And I personally am in awe of the fact. It is beautiful society has changed so drastically just in the last 60 years. I think it shows how America is growing and becoming more open to change…kind of like Obama’s tagline or whatever: Change.

Then I talked to my dad yesterday, and he brought up something I had not thought about. He said that until Obama can be president WITHOUT everyone marveling over the fact he did it as a black man, race will always be an issue. This makes total sense to me too. I suppose it is mostly the excitement that he is the first that is causing all the fervor, but now, it’s open game for anyone. It’s all about equality, and now that America has proved it can happen, I think it’s time to stop obsessing over the fact he is the first black president, and go with it. It’s a great thing.

I’m excited to see what happens. Good or bad, the next four years should be something to watch. I’m also ready for the “honeymoon period” of Obama to be over. We’ll see.


I thought the actual inauguration was beautiful. The oath–a little awkward, but definitely memorable. The preacher that gave the benediction–it was perfect final touch.

I loved seeing the shots of people’s faces as they watched Obama speak. They were the faces of hope, right there. Ready for him to lead. It was inpiring, to say the least.

I was amazed, no, stunned, at the number of people that turned out the the inauguration. I would have LOVED to be in D.C. or New York, or anywhere cool to witness all of it.


On a completely different note, things are going well. Amazing. Fantastic. So good I’m afraid to talk about it for fear it will all go away.

School is crazy. As of now, I have every minute planned out from here until Friday afternoon when I get my hair cut at 4:15. After that, I’m going home, changing into comfy clothes…and…writing my two papers that are due on Monday. Ha! You thought I’d get some down time. So did I. Oh well. I love my classes, and I figure the busier I am, the sooner the end of the semester will appear and I can get the hell out of Lubbock again. Or, at least, stay in Lubbock and have a super awesome internship.

We’ll see. 🙂

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January 14, 2009 Leave a comment

I think it’s about time to get my booty up to New York.


School is entirely overrated.

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January 11, 2009 Leave a comment

I don’t really know what to write today. All I know is, I’m in the mood to write. Maybe if I just type randomly, something will come.

I’m determined to get in shape this semester. Completely determined. I (miraculously) managed to lose weight since Thanksgiving. Don’t ask me how that happened. But I want to stay where I’m at right now. I finally feel comfortable.

My goodness, I’m bored. Bored, bored, bored.


Yeah. No inspiration struck.

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